Friday, October 25, 2013

Well, well, never enough time

Yep, there's never enough time.  Not enough time to focus on my kids individually enough for them not to somewhat act out.  Not enough time to knit.  Not enough time to spin.  Certainly not enough time to keep up with cleaning, laundry, and shopping enough to be good enough to be on a diet to lose some freaking weight before I am in the 2 weddings next fall.  Yeaaaaahhhhhh.

Ah well.  My little girl got better with swim class.  Till halfway through.  Then she tackle hugged the other girl so much to play with her, she ended up tackle hugging her face down in the water.  Lovely.  I profusely apologized to the parents, who were way cooler about it than I probably would have been had it been my kid, and that little girl wanted nothing to do with her all class, I don't blame her...but 3 year olds don't really get 'personal space'.  So she just kept on trying to play with her, saying sorry, giving her hugs, all the stuff she does at home, and the girl practically fled the pool every time.  That was it.  Done with swimming.  Maybe she can try swimming after we get her into a preschool or something where she can learn listening and accountability and stuff in a structured environment where she can't accidentally drown another child.  THEN maybe we can put her into another swim class.  Maybe she'll listen a little better then if she's gotten a structured preschool environment.  I just don't know.  Half the time I feel like I'm not cut out to be a mom.  Like I should be more equipped to handle this and somehow be able to figure it out, and I just don't.  I just don't.

The wee man has a tooth that came through, but he's normally such a happy little guy.  Completely sleeps through the night.  We're hopefully going to be moving next month, so home has been in an upheaval.  Of course, right around the holidays.  And because of that I have spent all my spare time on things concerning that.  So there has been no crafting time.  I can barely keep up with crafting for my HPKCHC class turn-ins that I have to do because of time shortage.  I wish I could bake and submit a class.  I would have gotten that.  That my girl can be a part of and it's mommy time and we work well together.  Harumph.

I so want to knit for the holiday.  I went from wanting to knit like 10 things to parring down that I wanted to spin 1 skein and knit just 3-4 OMB, I better finish these pants I started 2 months ago for the wee man before he grows out of them, and I just want to knit 2 things for Christmas, and I don't know if I can even do that!!!  So frustrating!  That's my outlet and I can't do it.  So I've got all this pent up crafty energy and I can't relax cause I don't have time to craft and relax at all.  Not like I expected to relax with a 3 year old and a 5 month old, that's not it, but at least at night or something, a little extra time, maybe if they napped on the weekends I'd get 4 hours, 2 on Saturday 2 on Sunday....not even 1 on each day do I get where they are napping at the same time.  Wee man doesn't even really  nap.  He sleeps through the night and takes little cat naps unless he's sick, but otherwise, not much.  So that's really a no go.  Ugh.  This will pass, I will craft again. I just want him to wear the pants.  I'm going to have to do a little at lunch every day or something...when I'm not working on transcripts at lunch sometimes.  Grrr.

Anyway, hopefully we will have a good Halloween next week.  I can't believe it's almost Halloween.  This is nuts.  But I'll post pics of Little Red Riding Hood and the Big Bad Wolf after Trick or Treating next week :)